I’ve shared it here on the blog before, but just in case you’re finding me for the first time, my mother died at the young age of 36. I was only 6 years old when it happened. On April 5th of this year, I finally make it to the age that she was. Now I know turning 36 is not your traditional grand birthday (although every year you live to see deserves to be celebrated), however, for obvious reasons, this birthday is very special to me.

I don’t see a lot of content about grief. I also don’t always go looking for it either. But I know that I’ve never seen anyone talk about what it’s like catching up to the age that their parent was when they passed away. It is a very bittersweet, odd, strange place to be in – if I’m honest. It can also be very anxiety provoking at times. So I decided that I wanted to document this experience in real time and share it. As mentioned, there aren’t many people talking honestly about their unique experiences with grief yet we all face grief at some point in our lives.

I explore a lot of what I’m feeling in the moment as well as lessons that I’ve learned over the years about grief. I even share some hot takes about what not to say to people who are grieving. I also share more on the experience of losing my mom and what if feels like to mother without a mother.

I hope that this honest vlog provides insight and possibly helps someone who is facing grief in some way. If there’s one thing I want to share it’s that joy is still possible, even while carrying the grief.

You can find all of the episodes of this vlog at the links below!